Friday, May 25, 2012

It's a Marathon, but Someone has to do it!


Everyone loves to joke about the distance of a full Marathon (26.2 miles).  If you say you are training to run a full Marathon, you will inevitably hear "ahh man, anyone could do the 26, but it is the .2 that gets you!".  Hardy-har-har.

The truth of the matter is, that .2 is a killer! You struggle through the ending miles of a Marathon with heavy legs, only to finally get to the 26 mile marker and have the .2 stretch out ahead of you like some sick joke. That .2 is torture. That .2 is hell. Or maybe that is just me...I have only run one full Marathon and I think it is when I saw the mirage of the finish line at the end of that deadly .2 that my lungs literally stuck together. Maybe it gets easier, but that isn't what I have heard from even those that have run many...like Jesse and Chris.

So will there be another Marathon in the near future?

The Taos Marathon is June 10th (www.TaosMarathon.weebly.com) and of course Chris and Jesse will be running it. Chris, in true Chris form (see previous post "A Family Affair") has jumped in and started his training with a 20 mile run. I know, he totally sucks. Jesse on the other hand is diligently continuing his training for the ULTRA Marathon this fall, so he is running 26 miles today. Yes you read that correctly, TWENTY SIX miles...for a training run! We would say he had completed yet another full marathon, but he isn't doing the .2 so it doesn't count. And yes I will be telling him this as I laugh and sip wine. You see I am not running today.

I am on the wine marathon. I am training very diligently, 100% focused. Every single day I make myself drink more wine. "How does she do it?" you may ask, but there is no way to explain it, some people have a gift. I have that gift.

Sauv Blanc, Riesling, Cab, a blend, a sparkling wine, then back to a Chard, oh yes I can go from white to red and back again! Recently at a blind tasting, or in the wine marathon arena, The Main Event, I managed to nail every single wine blindly including several vintage dates. I am very impressed with myself. You see, in the wine marathon, you don't need screaming supporters, you just need to think highly of yourself.

So I am taking a short break this week from training for running races and focusing on running circles around my glass. I hope you join me. It is so much more fun...and less sweaty.

 -Cheers from the Vivác Winery Family!
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Friday, May 18, 2012

Toe to Toe, I Feel Your Pain


No one can prepare you for loss. No one can tell you how you will handle it, how you will feel about it. Loss, big or small, is a process, one in which you have to get through in your own time, in your own way.

For me, I had no idea what was coming. Zero indication that I was about to be thrown feet first into it. In fact, the only glimmer of what was to come was a sensation, call it a "blister" about to rub. I was 100% focused on my first full Marathon and I blazed past all the warning signs.

The high of completing my first Marathon was crushed by the news of my loss. I was not flooded with pain the way I thought I would be. Instead it was like a steady pressure. An all consuming mental absorption. I couldn't think about anything else and I couldn't make the ever increasing pressure lift. Numb, I simply let the process unfold. It was as if it had to happen to me yet I was not a part of it. This was NOT what I expected at all. I expected to be writhing on the floor, screaming in pain. I pictured lots of tears.

I sat sipping wine, wine the color of my bruising. Wine that helped me feel numb. Wine that helped with the healing. I sipped my wine and stared at the inevitable before me, legs outstretched, swollen feet propped up. My future laid open and exposed to everyone.  I thought to myself, "How did this happen to me? Would I ever be the same?" I leaned on Jess who consoled me. He promised that I would get through it, but that it would take a long time.

As days turned into weeks. There was no bloody carnage, but rather a clear stream of relief, an utter sense of acceptance. But as with all loss, it comes in stages.

As the almost beautiful bruising was swept away in pieces off the floor. A new evolution of loss came to me. It was summer where barren soles play freely, but mine, I felt I had to hide. No one wants to see the deformity I had become. As time went on, I would actually forget about it only then to suddenly become aware of it again and wonder if anyone else had noticed. In a self conscious panic I would try to hide the glaringly obvious loss.

Now with more time having passed and as they say "time heals all wounds", I have been feeling on the mend! Only yesterday I was sucker punched with a new wave of this process. A pain I hadn't felt before, the first real pain I have been in touch with. A pain that dug in sharply. A new sense of life pushing its way into the old. This is not when I thought I would feel pain, yet that is exactly what I have.

"WHY?!" I screamed. Can't this just be over? I am tired of it being a thought, tired of it being a part of my daily existence. I want to wear sandals!!!

They say it is only a matter of time before you experience the loss all distance runners experience, the loss of a toe nail. But I didn't think it would happen to me. Now all I can do is go through the process. The long, tortuous process.

I hope someday to feel whole again. Someday to join the free soles of Summer. Someday, to wear sandals again.

At least my toe no longer matches the color of my wine.

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Tuesday, May 8, 2012

A Family Affair

Our journey is no longer ours alone.

Jesse decided he wanted to run, I am guessing, during one of his long bottling days with his brother Chris. I assume this because these are the days when, side by side, the two brothers come up with wild ideas. These are the days I usually refer to Chris as Jess' "other wife".  Chris becomes the "other wife" due to the sense of commitment Jess has to the idea they thought up together and there is nothing I can say or do to dissuade him, he has married his idea with his brother. The days where Jess and his "other wife" band together to talk the women in their lives into some hair brained idea come all too often. Running has always seemed a hair brained idea to me and seemed to be the next big adventure these two were ready to take on. Anyway, Jess came to me with the idea of running a marathon and after a couple bottles of wine, I was being talked... no bribed, into running a half marathon. I swore I would NEVER run a full Marathon. Jess took what he could get that day and then slowly wore me down over the years. I ran my first full Marathon in March of this year.

*Tip to those trying to bribe (and things to watch for by those about to be bribed), LOTS of wine and a substantial gift seem to work wonders.

Before I knew it we were off and running, pun intended.

You might be asking, why Jess and his "other wife" didn't just do the running by themselves, why do the ladies need to be involved? I think for Jesse, I was a stepping stone to get to the level he could then join his brother on. I said yes because I wanted the bribe gift...and there was wine involved... lots of wine.

The "other wife" takes my place as the extreme running partner. Chris has always had a natural gift for running, an ability to randomly select a day to run 10 miles and do it at a pace I will probably never be able to train for ...and he'll do it hung over. Absolutely unfair.

Jess ran with me until he was able to build up enough speed to run with Chris. They have managed to race Marathon after Marathon, encouraging each other to add another race to the calendar. The races get faster for Chris and Jess, having found that endurance is his gift, get longer! Chris hopes to shave enough speed off his Marathon time to qualify for Boston, Jess is training for a 50 miler.

Needless to say, it is hard to not feel the stirring in your gut to get involved, usually for me that is because I ate greasy food the night before...but that is a different blog all together. Seeing people push themselves, commit to a goal, follow through and finally cross the finish line at a race is beyond moving. I have cried at all of Jesse and Chris' races.

Chris' wife (his actual wife, not his "other wife" Jesse) Liliana, has been working out at home while raising her 2 kids, perhaps secretly planing to step in and race one of these days. I have no doubt she could kick some butt and do it without sweating. I seriously don't think she sweats! Due to a second pregnancy, Liliana has not yet taken up running. Lucky girl.

Now, Jess' son Denim (about to be 6 this summer) and Chris' son Maddox (turning 5 this week) have taken to running. Yes I know all children run, but they want to race!

Enter race opportunity #1:"Run for the Zoo". This is a race held in Albuquerque offering a 1/2 marathon, 10K, 5K and 1 mile fun run. The kids signed up for the 1 mile. Maddox unfortunately came down with a cold and could not participate. Denim, along with Dixon Elementary (the 3rd most entries of all Northern NM schools) joined the thousands to run Sunday morning.

A few days prior to the race, the elementary kids got their race packets. Denim excitedly asked to put on his new zoo shirt and have me pin his bib on just as he had seen Jess and myself do for our races. He proudly posed for photos and packed his "gear" for the race. Each day he thought about what foods to eat that would make him run better. He talked about being a little nervous and he tried to get more sleep. The dedication of this 5 year old to a race was more than adorable, it was touching. We felt a sense of pride watching him ready himself for his first race. In a time where kids watch more TV than play, it is exciting to see kids participate in sports. Especially when it is your child. Especially when your child would rather read college text books on dinosaurs than go outside.

The day of the race, nerves were on edge, the pressure and crowds were setting Denim off. We found a group from the school and huddled together, moving with the sea of people through the start gates and down the race course. The mass moved us blocks down the road...and past the turn off for the 1 mile loop. Yes, we were now moving with the last of the 5K group NOT the kids 1 mile "fun run".

How did this happen you ask? Well, we would like to know as well. It seemed odd that the race had started early, but then again, when you have thousands of people crammed into an area, confusion seems to be the norm. Disoriented, we started with the mob we were in.

Denim ran the 1st mile well, at a quick clip even. Then as he began to tire, he walked. The path ahead seemed never ending. Like a mirage, we thought each bend in the road up ahead was the finish line. We encouraged him to press on, take breaks when he needed and run 'his race'. Jess and I looked at each other nervously as we continued with the crowd far past what should have been the 1 mile stopping point. As we wound our way into neighborhoods we knew, this was a 5K. Denim managed to run 2.1 miles. A true Marathon for a 5 year old. He had stayed in excellent spirits and even literally stopped to smell the roses. However, shortly after the 2 mile point, he was unable to continue. I picked him up and carried him in my arms. My very tired this-is-too-far-to-carry-50lbs arms. So much for the "fun run".

Denim wasn't the only one ill prepared for a 5K! I was wearing a skirt and converse, not the attire that would support 3.1 miles. We neared the end and Denim had a resurgence of energy, running across the finish line with pride. I was more like a drowned rat. My skirt was dirty from his shoes rubbing on it and it was twisted off to the side. My shirt was soaked with sweat and I had blisters on my toes. Lovely.

After a bag of cotton candy and a tour of the zoo, we walked a mile back to the car. The poor kid did about 4 miles of walking that day. On the drive home Denim reminisced about the fine points of the race concluding "If I can do 2 miles at age 5, I think I will run a half marathon at 14 years old and a full Marathon by the time I am 20 years old." I am relieved that this experience didn't deter him, but inspired him to continue. I have to say if I thought I was heading out for a half marathon and found I was on a full Marathon course, I would not be such a good sport. The cotton candy at the end of that race would have to be made out of Oxycontin with a side of wine.

And so, with one race down, and a future of races in front of him, we see that this journey of running is not just ours, but inspiring future generations. Maybe Denim and Maddox will inspire their kids to be runners too. If only talking them into taking over the winery were as easy.

-Cheers from the Vivác Winery Family!
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