Running on Empty

I used to complain about the pain of running (fans of this blog remember that well), but now, as I live every day in constant pain, as I adjust to find that pain the norm, I wonder if when I am healthy again and return to running, will it hurt the same way or will I have shifted my threshold for pain and I will be a badass?

Most of you are probably stuck on the part where I said I'd return to running. Are your mouths hitting the floor? I know, it does sound crazy to take up the sport I have spent my 30's complaining about, but for some reason, it sounds appealing. Of course I am also on medication so maybe I'm not thinking clearly.

Speaking of medication...I am so happy to have found something that helps with my full body aches and monstrous nausea. I have a long list of other symptoms that drive me nuts as well, but those 2 are the stand outs that make getting out of bed unbelievably difficult. Even with the meds, it only reduces these little bastards to a dull roar. By 7:30pm it is at the unbearable level and I need to take something strong enough to help me sleep a little. When you see me out and about, looking "normal", it is thanks to a mega dose of meds. As those wear off, I crumble. If I over due one day, I pay the price over the next few. I cancel plans all the time because the act of "I'm ok" is too much.

But all that is depressing as shit! Let's get to the fun part...pot! Yep, the miracle meds are medical marijuana. You have heard about it in the news, know it is legal in some states, wondered about this booming industry, but may not REALLY be familiar with it. Well it is amazing. Did you know that you can get a version that doesn't make you high? I did not know this, but I also never really explored the substance.  This incredible plant combats nausea and pain better than any other drug out there and makes me appear "normal". Having my Medical Marijuana card is allowing me to still work, still be a mom, still be a wife.

So as we return to the conversation of running in the future, as we fantasize that it will be a new and different experience, you may ask yourself "what is she thinking? Is she high?" and the answer is yes.

-Cheers from the Vivác Winery Family!