Returning to running after a long break, no matter what the reason, is like bumping into your ex unexpectedly. At first there is a flush of excitement, a bit of confusion in your body. You try to process all the information your body and brain are fighting to tell you. Your brain says 'hey we can handle this' while your body says 'oh hell no!'.
As you start your 1st run back on the track (or road, or sidewalk or treadmill) there is a surge of that old familiar feeling, a feeling your body recognizes without hesitation just like when you see an ex that you loved, you sense that familiarity. Your brain seizes the opportunity to tell you fast quipped lies 'Look a fresh start! We can be friends! Things are different!'. But the truth is, you can never really be friends with running...or an ex.
A few minutes into this new found "friendship", you are sucker punched with memories. Memories of why you had to break-up. Those old wounds suddenly feel fresh as your knee squeals and your hamstring sears red hot with a cramp. Ya, you know what I'm talking about, same with an ex that fills the awkward silence with backhanded compliments and inappropriate innuendo. You suddenly realize...running...running is a jerk.
It's ok though. Things ARE different, you are different, and you will be every single damn time you take a break and start over. This seems to surprise me every time. Why can't it be 'running with benefits', an easy going, no strings attached, just having fun kind of a relationship that can be picked up or forgotten about any time one wants?
I have to admit, I don't know who I will be in this new relationship with running. Will I cower to its demands as I have in the past, letting it bully me? Or will I be strong and take control? I am currently being seduced and you really can't tell anything about where a relationship will end up when you are in the thrills of seduction.
*This post is brought to you by our red wine blend Diavolo, because all break-ups feel like the devil.
-Cheers from the Vivác Winery family!
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